I don’t know how exactly it’s been happening, but over the past few months a distinct feeling of ‘uneasiness’ has crept into my thoughts like a thief, slowly but surely stealing my sense of ‘well being’ piece by piece, and leaving me feeling increasingly distant, unattached, cold.
21 Aug 2012 Leave a Comment
in belief system, christianity, damnation, death, delusional, destiny, existence, heaven, hell, lies, meaning of life, religion, spirituality Tags: angels, christianity, comfort, damnation, dissatisfaction, existence, heaven, hell, life after death, meaning of life, mortal existence, mortality, mystery, spiritual evolution, times of need, unattached, uneasiness, well being, why are we here
23 Jun 2012 Leave a Comment
in acceptance, change, destiny, gods will Tags: christianity, existence, gods great plan, gods purpose, I remember, lucifer, nature, profound experience, profoundly changed, rest of my life, spiritual guidence, sun shines brighter
I remember everything like it was yesterday and the experience has profoundly changed me. The sun shines brighter, water tastes sweeter, the air smells cleaner, and with a sense of ‘my place’ in the great scheme of things, everything ‘simply’ makes more sense. I’ve shared a few of the things I experienced with a few ‘very close friends’ but still feel a little bit reticent to talk to anyone about it in any depth. My ‘new’ view of the world is ‘all encompassing’ and has affected every aspect of my life. I’m amazed at how easy it is to interact with other people now and quite simply, ‘get things done’. I seem to be able to read their intentions ‘despite’ what they might actually be saying and it just saves so much time… I’ve also stopped feeling like I haven’t ‘done’, or ‘achieved’ enough in my life. I feel good, I feel strong, and I want to feel this way for the rest of my life…
03 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in angels, belief system, christianity, devil, lucifer, perfect harmony, scriptures, spiritual guidence Tags: christianity, existence, light of harmony, lucifer, perfect harmony, scriptures, spiritual guidence, spirituality
…I ask, “Where can we find guidance if not from the scriptures?”
“Guidence comes from within and the search for perfect harmony begins with acceptance of the knowledge that ‘people’ and the beliefs they hold are imperfect. Herein lies the answer to your question. For the greater part of perfection in ‘oneself’ is the acceptance of imperfection in ‘others’.” He replies.
I can feel my anger and frustration slowly being drained away by Lucifer’s inescapable ‘ cold hard’ logic and don’t like it so decide to change the subject before he checkmates me. “So what do you want…
03 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
in angels, christianity, damnation, devil, existence, hell, lucifer, reincarnated, spirituality Tags: angels, christianity, damnation, damned, devil, evil, existence, hell, lucifer, mortal existence, pit of hell, satan, spirituality, vision of hell, witness
We are in an infinite expanse of greyness that is neither light nor dark, just, grey… and after the indescribably beautiful feeling of ‘completeness’ I had in the presence of the creator, here if anything, I only feel a little bit sleepy which is odd, as up to now I’ve never felt so… energised… alert… alive even. Its a shame I’m asleep, or, actually I don’t know, if it’s just my body that’s asleep or… best not think too hard about that… “Where are we?”
“This place of stillness is where souls wait, souls change.”
“Souls, what sou…” and then they slowly appear… The little points of golden light I had seen at the start of creation, stretching out as far as the eye can see, and more than I could possibly hope to count. Some are just golden, but others contain people, and things that look kind of… animal… alien.
“The ‘golden’ are new life waiting to start their journey, the others walk ‘the path of souls’.” He says.
I fall quiet watching the souls slowly drift past, and as I look inside the orbs containing human forms, I see their features changing, appearing to almost cycle through the various faces the soul wore at each stage of its mortal time. Its unnerving to watch, but I just can’t tear my eyes away as the expression on each face tells a story… then I notice something that makes my blood run cold with fear.
There is an orb containing a human shape, but unlike the rest of the souls in this.. grey place, it is awake but seemingly unaware of its surroundings or the ‘black’ formless shapes that are crawling over its outer surface peering into the orb, and watching its every move. “What are they” I say in a low voice.
“They are the ‘Feeders’ that take those who chose the path of disharmonic hatred into the darkness of hell.”
More ‘Feeders’ are gathering now, slowly but surely working together to cover the orb. “Is there no hope of redemption for these ‘souls’, is there no way they can put right, the wrong they have done.” I ask anxiously.
“There are many crossroads along the way, where a clear decision has to be made on which path to choose. But the gift of ‘free will’ means the responsibility for these decisions and the consequences that follow, rest with the soul itself, and a soul’s decision to walk towards the light of god must be based upon its desire to achieve harmony with its world, not fear of retribution for its actions. For those who choose to blind themselves to the pain and suffering they inflict on others without any conscious feelings of empathy for their victims or remorse for their actions, there can be no redemption. For it is only with the ‘truth’ that redemption can be found, and only complete acceptance of the ‘truth’ can set them free.”
I watch as the orb slowly floats away with the light of the soul contained within almost smothered now by the ‘Feeders’. Its time here is almost over and I can’t help feeling sorry for it, but if this is a ‘direct’ result of the suffering it has caused others. Then so be it…
I’m disturbed by what I’ve witnessed and by the fact I’m feeling some twisted kind of satisfaction that the evil living amongst us get rewarded in this way…
“Do we have a certain fate or destiny that we can, or need to fulfil during the course of our time?”
22 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in destiny, existence, faith, fate, meaning of life, prophecy, religion, spirituality Tags: destiny, existence, fate, happiness, harmony, meaning of life, mortal existence, prophecy, realm of mortality, spirituality, the big question, why are we here
“The concept of ‘destiny’ is closely linked to the concept of ‘good’ and ‘bad’ luck. Neither exist and are the words people use to inspire themselves on to greatness, or excuse themselves for failure. Humanity still has to rid itself of uncertainness in its own abilities, feelings of unworthiness in its place as the dominate species on earth, and of the belief that it is living on borrowed time, just waiting for extinction.
The truth is this type of doubt becomes a self fulfilling prophecy making the ‘hard to do’, ‘harder to do’, and absolves one of failure through lack of proper preparation or action. Perversely it also dulls the sense of achievement that one truly deserves when they succeed because of a feeling ‘luck was on their side’ this time. The decisions an individual makes at the end of the day are their ‘own’ decisions, and the effects of those choices are a result of the situation at that moment in time without any form of ‘divine intervention’ positive or negative.”
Its odd, but everything I’m being told is strangely liberating, and for the first time in my life I’m starting to feel that my free will is not like a leaf being blown around in the wind. I take a few minutes to absorb what’s been said then consider my next question. “So where do souls go when they return to a state of pure energy,” I finally ask.
“There is a place in creation halfway between god and the realm of mortality. I’ll show you…”
18 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in angels, evolution, existence, faith, heaven, reincarnated, truth Tags: angels, christianity, creation, cycle of life, evolution, existence, gift of life, harmony, heaven, lifetime, light of harmony, mortal lifetime, mortality, pure energy, rebirth, reborn, reincarnation, spirituality, truth, why are we here, why must the innocent suffer?
“It takes as long as the time required for it to happen, for the destination is defined by the journey towards it.”
“But how is this possible when life is so short.” I ask.
“It is not possible in ‘one’ mortal lifetime.”
“Are you talking about reincarnation?”
“Yes” he says “For a soul cannot ‘evolve’ whilst it is contained within its mortal frame. It must return to a state of ‘pure energy’ for its vibration to change before once again entering into the cycle of, ‘mortality’, ‘experience’, and ‘evolution’, for without this, all of the souls in creation would stay at the most basic level of development without any possibility of evolution, without any possibility of moving closer to the creator.”
“Does this happen to all souls. Am ‘I’ reincarnated?”
“All souls are reborn in different forms until they are ready for the transcendence.”
“Will I at any point remember my past lives?”
“No experience or knowledge is lost. The nearer you get to god, the more you will ‘consciously’ remember.”
I stop momentarily to try to absorb this fundamental change to my picture of life and death, but here, in the presence of god, I know that my life will never be the same, he was right. Everything Lucifer is telling me does ‘as he says’, quite simply ‘ring true’.
“Why didn’t god simply create a universe in harmony?” I ask. Why have so much pain and suffering in the world. Why have so much hate and anger. Why must the innocent suffer?”
18 Nov 2011 1 Comment
in christianity, existence, heaven, hell, meaning of life, religion, spirituality Tags: deepest sorrow, existence, gift of life, greatest needs, happiness, light of harmony, motivation, overwhelming happiness, sorrow, suffering and want, why must the innocent suffer?
“If you have never cried tears of the deepest sorrow then you will never cry tears of overwhelming happiness. If your greatest needs have never been met then you will never appreciative being without need. Gods greatest gift to life is the darkness of pain, suffering and want, for it provides a measure to gauge ones happiness against, and the motivation necessary to drive all living things towards the light of harmony.”
15 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in angels, christianity, heaven, meaning of life, spirituality Tags: christianity, creation, existence, harmony, heaven, mortal existence, spirituality, transcendence, vision of heaven, why are we here
Everything I love, all of my happiness and joy, everything I wanted, needed and searched for are all here. I look around at the myriad souls floating in this ‘white space’, each of us connected by an almost invisible umbilical chord to the creator. If god was the sun we’d be vaporised at this distance, but there is no danger here, only the feeling that an extremely long and weary journey has ended and we are finally… home.
“Everything and everyone is connected.” he says “We are all part of the same creation, made of the same basic material, working towards the same goal. The creation of harmony within oneself, ones life and the world we live in, for harmony is the only true path to god and it must start from within before it can be expressed, and have an effect on the outside world. It is the ‘pure’ vibration harmony produces that moves us closer to the creator and it is this vibration that will ultimately bring about your transcendence.”
10 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in angels, christianity, devil, existence, faith, gods will, heaven, meaning of life, spirituality, truth Tags: christianity, creation, existence, faith, gods great plan, gods purpose, heaven, meaning of life, spirituality, the big question, vision of heaven, why are we here
He smiles then says “I’ll show you, look up.”
With memories of hell still fresh in my mind, my heart sinks as I look upwards. The sky goes black, pitch black. “There’s nothing up there” I say.
“Before the beginning, there was only god, a single sentient entity, nothing else” is his response. Then the same someone or something I can’t see whispers “Let there be light.”
The sky explodes and I sit there with Lucifer mesmerised, watching the light of creation change down through the spectrum as it cools then collect into clusters that slowly start to turn.
“The first law of existence is all matter must be organised in harmonious structure,” He says ” it is the force that holds creation together, and the composition of the entity you know as god can be considered to be the perfect harmonious structure.”
The clusters get bigger and I watch as ‘stars’ start to form in their centres. The darkness is returning now but it’s not empty anymore…
“But there is more to life than its composition” he continues, “Free will is the definition of sentient life, and all sentient life ‘without exception’ needs sustenance in the form of energy to maintain its structure and stimulation to maintain its mind” he tells me as little points of golden light start to appear ‘everywhere’. Instinctively I know they are from the soul of the creator and I watch as they too, gently fall into the still forming stars, seeding the universe with the potential to create life itself.
“God created this reality and breathed life into it with the ability to develop, evolve and transcend to join the creator ‘as an equal’. Before the beginning there was only god. At the end of the beginning, god will no longer be alone.”
As much as I try to reject his answer, I just can’t. I know he’s not lying but still have to ask… “how do I know you are telling me the truth?”
“Truth has a special energy, and when spoken, the words vibrate in perfect harmony with each other. All souls born into this world have th….”
“…the ability to hear, yes I know you’ve already told me that…. But look why me why am I the one you are telling this to?”
“Because you are lis….”
“…Yes I know, because I am listening… Are there others, others like me?”
“There has been many over time, and there will be more as the ‘conscious awakening’ continues to spread throughout your race. When enough reach this level of development an evolutionary leap will bring about the transcendence.”
The weight of the knowledge is starting to bear heavy on me but I’ve come too far to turn back now. “Is it possible for me to see… this entity… this creator?” I ask him.
“Yes.” he replies. I take a long last look at the wonder of creation and breath in deeply as everything around me fades away to…