“Behind the door in your dreams is the dark chaos of your own soul, a reminder of what we are ‘all’ capable of if left unchecked, it is the opposing force to the light of harmony, and the tension between the two creates the energy that drives ‘all sentient life’ forward.”
I have been having these ‘night visitations’ three or four times a year for as long as I can remember. Each time waking up bathed in sweat, crying in terror and feeling lucky I survived another attack from this evil, malevolent entity. His answer brings a profound sense of relief as the realisation settles in that it was simply me, frightening myself, nothing more, nothing less… I have no more questions now, I just want to go home.
“Can this end now please” I ask.
“Yes, but I have one last thing to share with you…”
He turns, looks directly at me, and the universe itself seems to hold its breath before he finally speaks.
“Consider the importance of the ‘things you ask for’, are they the things you actually want?”
“Consider the importance of the ‘things you want’, for are they the things you actually need?”
“Finally, consider the importance of ‘what you actually need’, for this is where you will find true, and lasting happiness…”
Even if all of this is just a crazy dream and I wake up and the memories slowly fade away like most of them do. Right here, right now, I can’t help but have a deep feeling of empathy with this ‘angel’ before me… “Lucifer, before this ends I’d like to say… I’d like to say thank you.” I’m not sure if its my imagination, but he ‘almost’ seems to smile as everything before me slowly disappears like mist, revealing what I used to consider to be ‘the real world’ behind it…
Anna stirs from her sleep, looks at me and says “You had that dream again?…”