“What has been waiting for me in my dreams all these years?”

“Behind the door in your dreams is the dark chaos of your own soul, a reminder of what we are ‘all’ capable of if left unchecked, it is the opposing force to the light of harmony, and the tension between the two creates the energy that drives ‘all sentient life’ forward.”

I have been having these ‘night visitations’ three or four times a year for as long as I can remember.  Each time waking up bathed in sweat, crying in terror and feeling lucky I survived another attack from this evil, malevolent entity.  His answer brings a profound sense of relief as the realisation settles in that it was simply me, frightening myself, nothing more, nothing less…  I have no more questions now, I just want to go home.

“Can this end now please” I ask.

“Yes, but I have one last thing to share with you…”

He turns, looks directly at me, and the universe itself seems to hold its breath before he finally speaks.

“Consider the importance of the ‘things you ask for’, are they the things you actually want?”

“Consider the importance of the ‘things you want’, for are they the things you actually need?”

“Finally, consider the importance of ‘what you actually need’, for this is where you will find true, and lasting happiness…”

Even if all of this is just a crazy dream and I wake up and the memories slowly fade away like most of them do.  Right here, right now, I can’t help but have a deep feeling of empathy with this ‘angel’ before me… “Lucifer, before this ends I’d like to say… I’d like to say thank you.”  I’m not sure if its my imagination, but he ‘almost’ seems to smile as everything before me slowly disappears like mist, revealing what I used to consider to be ‘the real world’ behind it…

Anna stirs from her sleep, looks at me and says “You had that dream again?…”

“Does this mean those seemly ‘gifted’ amongst us are in reality, souls more in harmony with the universe?”

“All souls are ‘born gifted’ with the same capacity to learn, develop, realise their own potential, and ultimately ‘transcend’, but in answer to your question, yes, even though the ‘mortal vessel’ is the same, the souls contain within are all at different levels of development.”

As persuasive as his answers are the concept of reincarnation makes me uncomfortable and is not something I want to deal with right now.  I need to change this line of thought…

“And how much pain will I need to endure before I achieve this ‘perfect’ harmony?”

“It takes as long as the time required for it to happen, for the destination is defined by the journey towards it.”

“But how is this possible when life is so short.” I ask.

“It is not possible in ‘one’ mortal lifetime.”

“Are you talking about reincarnation?”

“Yes” he says “For a soul cannot ‘evolve’ whilst it is contained within its mortal frame.  It must return to a state of ‘pure energy’ for its vibration to change before once again entering into the cycle of, ‘mortality’, ‘experience’, and ‘evolution’, for without this, all of the souls in creation would stay at the most basic level of development without any possibility of evolution, without any possibility of moving closer to the creator.”

“Does this happen to all souls.  Am ‘I’ reincarnated?”

“All souls are reborn in different forms until they are ready for the transcendence.”

“Will I at any point remember my past lives?”

“No experience or knowledge is lost.  The nearer you get to god, the more you will ‘consciously’ remember.”

I stop momentarily to try to absorb this fundamental change to my picture of life and death, but here, in the presence of god, I know that my life will never be the same, he was right.  Everything Lucifer is telling me does ‘as he says’, quite simply ‘ring true’.